Alone...

Read this One sentence (even if it's an incomplete sentence) at a time

Tears so cleansing you'd think I was a mere child being bathed by a loving mother with a unburdened heart of joy. That feeling, driving at night. Always at night. No other car on the road. Blinking red lights ahead. Unable to focus on your surrounding. Beautifully broken in a strange vulnerability of the emotions. Why do we cry at night when we feel alone and feel so relieved. OR a deeper question, are we really alone?

Alone: without anybody else.

Look closer,

ALONE: Without ANYBODY else.

God is an all knowing being not a body, we represent the BODY of Christ, so when we are alone in our car, we are indeed alone, but we are not by ourselves. God is there, we draw closer to God because the fear of the darkness, the absence of light, during the day time we can walk through the parking lot just fine, but take away the light --we got problems. Darkness makes the simplest of tasks difficult. Darkness brings fear to the ultimate height, it is the climax of all scary stories, the best tool for reverence.

Why did God make it then? Hmmmmm...

It is here in the darkness we are able to reach the ultimate goal of faith --submission. The absence of what is good reminds you of what is the truth. Lies are good because they bring out the truth:

Through constant lies a person can find the core of a person. When the lies are brought out of a person, only then can they be made right.

Death is good because it brings people to life:

People do not really value life until it's taken away only then is the daily routine shattered and value put on every second spent, no not spent, given to us. We don't deserve it, we didn't earn it, God cannot rob us f something that is not rightfully ours.

Darkness is good because it brings out the Light:

Darkness evokes fear and the only way to face fear is to muster fear up. Fear is a blessing because through fear faith is given, in our most vulnerable state, when a person will do anything to get a sense of control back into their hands, what will he or she choose? 

You lose your job --Do you steal in fear of a life of poverty?

Someone upsets you --Do you gossip behind their back in fear a friend will take their side?

You find a wallet --Do you take the money in fear of a missed opportunity?

Now we should all know the answers to these, but when fear is present, fear of the unknown, which will a person actually choose. Here is where faith and submission is shown, in this state of vulnerability is where relationships build. Here in the presence of fear a person is defined by God. Anyone can give abundantly when abundance is given to them, but in a time when God "taketh away" should we draw back our hearts or push them closer to God. Reach higher. bend our knees farther. Raise our voices stronger. Cry out to Jesus. Alone. I almost feel like Alone is short for All but one, Al...one, Alone. Keep in mind that one in the midst of alone. There is always one even when you feel alone. God is there listening, weeping with you, cradling however much or little of you heart you allow God to mend, Emmanuel God with Us.

Rejoice in your fear and your loneliness, for it is here in your trials and transgressions that you find the heart of God.

:) I felt Alone tonight.