Alone...

Read this One sentence (even if it's an incomplete sentence) at a time

Tears so cleansing you'd think I was a mere child being bathed by a loving mother with a unburdened heart of joy. That feeling, driving at night. Always at night. No other car on the road. Blinking red lights ahead. Unable to focus on your surrounding. Beautifully broken in a strange vulnerability of the emotions. Why do we cry at night when we feel alone and feel so relieved. OR a deeper question, are we really alone?

Alone: without anybody else.

Look closer,

ALONE: Without ANYBODY else.

God is an all knowing being not a body, we represent the BODY of Christ, so when we are alone in our car, we are indeed alone, but we are not by ourselves. God is there, we draw closer to God because the fear of the darkness, the absence of light, during the day time we can walk through the parking lot just fine, but take away the light --we got problems. Darkness makes the simplest of tasks difficult. Darkness brings fear to the ultimate height, it is the climax of all scary stories, the best tool for reverence.

Why did God make it then? Hmmmmm...

It is here in the darkness we are able to reach the ultimate goal of faith --submission. The absence of what is good reminds you of what is the truth. Lies are good because they bring out the truth:

Through constant lies a person can find the core of a person. When the lies are brought out of a person, only then can they be made right.

Death is good because it brings people to life:

People do not really value life until it's taken away only then is the daily routine shattered and value put on every second spent, no not spent, given to us. We don't deserve it, we didn't earn it, God cannot rob us f something that is not rightfully ours.

Darkness is good because it brings out the Light:

Darkness evokes fear and the only way to face fear is to muster fear up. Fear is a blessing because through fear faith is given, in our most vulnerable state, when a person will do anything to get a sense of control back into their hands, what will he or she choose? 

You lose your job --Do you steal in fear of a life of poverty?

Someone upsets you --Do you gossip behind their back in fear a friend will take their side?

You find a wallet --Do you take the money in fear of a missed opportunity?

Now we should all know the answers to these, but when fear is present, fear of the unknown, which will a person actually choose. Here is where faith and submission is shown, in this state of vulnerability is where relationships build. Here in the presence of fear a person is defined by God. Anyone can give abundantly when abundance is given to them, but in a time when God "taketh away" should we draw back our hearts or push them closer to God. Reach higher. bend our knees farther. Raise our voices stronger. Cry out to Jesus. Alone. I almost feel like Alone is short for All but one, Al...one, Alone. Keep in mind that one in the midst of alone. There is always one even when you feel alone. God is there listening, weeping with you, cradling however much or little of you heart you allow God to mend, Emmanuel God with Us.

Rejoice in your fear and your loneliness, for it is here in your trials and transgressions that you find the heart of God.

:) I felt Alone tonight.  

God's Eyes (for a second)

Ever notice how a picture never does a scenic view, or any view for that matter, justice? Ever heard someone say,"Oh man, you had to be there to see that sunset" or "The picture just doesn't do it justice"? 

You see, we are all made in God's eyes. You've heard this before, but have you taken the time to really think what this means? We have a part of God in us and for a second God gave me a deeper grasp of what this means --I'm going to share that with you.

A camera is man made, when you take a picture it really only has one solid focal point, a person may  look somewhere else in the picture, but can only focus as well as the resolution of the picture. I realized this at Costco when I was watching an HD TV. The picture was perfect, but was not the same as reality.

Next time you drive observe your surroundings not only can you focus your eyes around you, but you can also turn your head. You are able to clearly see whatever you choose to observe.

Then it hit me --BOOM. God sees the same way I do when I focus on one point, but God sees that way with everything. I changed my focus from the Dory sticker my sister left on the upper left hand side of my rearview mirror (she did that to help her smile on her way to school. That day it made me smile), next there was the line of blinkers from the oncoming traffic, blinking out of synch with only a pattern God would be able to find, then to the thought of driving down Broadway downtown, if I was that amused with the blinkers here, who knows what would happen if I tried to take in my entire surroundings of Broadway as I ventured down that busy street at night. How can God see all that? I cannot fathom it.

If there's one thing I should know it's just because I can't fathom it doesn't mea God will not allow it to happen.

Take Peter walking on water toward Jesus. Call it a myth or a lie if you like just because you cannot fathom it, but I believe it really happened. Peter must have been so scared because he knows what it's like to sink, he knows what to expect, standing there at the edge of the boat hearing Jesus call,"Peter, don't be afraid, I am here", worst case scenario, Peter steps in an swims back to the top, so what was he afraid of? 

He was not afraid of falling in the water he was afraid of something different, if Jess said,"Hey Peter, I want you to cannonball into the water and get back in the boat", Peter would have been like, "No problem!", but he asked him to do something that would go against everything he knew. Something that would bring him to the realization that just because you've got God in your heart, doesn't make you God of your world. The fact of the matter is we are afraid to see through the eyes of God because we are so used to the heart-breaking reality of the world. Our world. The one that we've messed up from the beginning of time and beginning of our lives. The more we think we understand the more lost we get; when we submit to God, then we will truly begin to understand because we won't just focus on our destination while we're driving, we'll obsere the present, comprehend our surroundings of the "Now" and ultimately begin to get a glimpse of the world through God's eyes and see the world as God intended it. 

Funny how in a few seconds God can show me all of this! If that's not proof of how awesome and truly Divine God is, pray about it, and God will show you too:)

God Bless Ya'll,

You're in my prayers!